On a serious note.

In my lack of ability to rest my eyelids and fall asleep, the clogs upstairs started tick-tocking over, and a Hypothesis overcame me. Stick with this in places, it is actually quite expressive.

Passion. Desire. Devotion. Affection. Future. Addiction. Are all strong words, but one word that stands above the rest, for me: Dedication.

Let me elaborate.

I am dedicated into making something of, and being someone in my life. I will not rest nor give up this idea ever. Whether I am doing what I am doing now, or something totally unrelated. I am going to be something.  

Whether I’m in an office getting by on what I’m earning and living in a run-down place where it is too expensive to re-furb. Or whether I’m stuck in a supermarket for the rest of my life.

IF that whole office turns to face me when I walk in, and smiles are drawn over colleague’s faces, IF they beat me to the ‘Hello, good morning, how are you today’ greeting, and they actually mean it, happiness will be conveyed among me and in my soul. I may not have ‘made it’ but hey, I’ve got a life worth living for.

And that thing I was on about earlier, yeah you know, that dedication. I’m always going to have that dedication. It will never evade in whatever it is I’m doing.

I could be famous. I could deal with it very well, I have that persona, that charisma that is required. That ‘look at me’ I’m a cocksure, confident guy from Essex. But I wouldn’t need it when I’m enjoying what I do, when I’m actually liked by most, when people anticipate my arrival with good-will which is duly returned. I just need to be noticed

I’m safe in this knowledge. I’m also safer knowing that, right now I’m enjoying what I’m doing, I’m liked by the majority of my peers, I feel like a mini celeb when I walk into uni, but I do not take this for granted. I love each and every one that has shown me kindness and been there for me. Some, more than others – the ones closest to me, the ones that know who they are.

I’m dedicated to continuing this throughout my life.

Who needs fame?

All that I’m happy with right now is that I have all of you, I always will. YOU will always have me too. I may take over the world, I may not, but essentially you have all set me on that path, and whatever happens I couldn’t have done it without you all. Know this, I’m always gonna’ be that cheeky lad. I’m always gonna’ have that smile that gets you grinning when you clock it. I’m always gonna’ be rough and loud. I’m always gonna’ be me. Its worked this far.

Stay happy

Stay dedicated

Yours, eternally

And forever gratefully,

Anthony George Bridger (AGB)